GIGZ 18th BDAY

Masaya talaga ako ngaun..nakakapagod pero worth it naman. Its gigz' bday thats why. Buti nalang nagustuhan nya ung gift ko..kahit na mejo inokray ni mam babi..as in hindi nya tinigilan hanggang matapos ang 3 hrs lecture namin..hahay..pero masaya pa din. Si Bien super bait ng taong un. Gulat kame ni Ken kasi sinama nya kame sa pagbblow out nya kay debutant gigz. Masaya kahit na may something!heehehehe..tama ba gigz?!peace!
Hindi lang jan nagtapos ang day na 'to..pagkatapos namin kumain e naglakad kame simula SM Manila hanggang Malacañang!san ka pa...masakit sa ulo.sa paa..pero tulad nga ng sabi ko..masaya naman..un nga lang di na namin kasama si ken nun kaya mejo wala na kong kausap..carry lang!haha..masaya pa din!
Mukhang magkakasundo talga kameng apat.. basta masaya ako. I really enjoyed their company. Sana lage nalang ganun..pero malabo kasi si bien nagwowork..kaya un..wala nang manglilibre!haha..joke bien!
Isa pa pala..sayang gusto ko sana kanina mag-audition dun sa CALL ME A VJ ng universitv..sayang talaga!its a chance na sana..heheeh.asa pa ko dun.may araw din ako..un lang un e.hahahahaha...
Pauwi na ko sa bahay..pagod na pagod. pero carry lang. may baon namang saya.magulo isip ko ngaun..malapit na din kasi prelim at mukang di ko mapapasa lahat ng exam..hahaayy..wag naman sana..sana di ako pabayaan ng Diyos pati ng mga klasmeyt ko!haahahaha..lam na.
Pagod na mata ko.gusto ko lang kasi may mapagsabihan ng mga saloobin ko ngaun. mahirap maging college student. pero masaya.
Happy bday nalang sau gigz!
Sana magsama pa tau hanggang 4th year.kaya natin 'to.go!

Nilalaman ng Utak.July 04,2008

☻ naiinis ako...
☻ naiinis ako sa mga taong mapanghusga.
☻ bakit pa kelangan ng pag ibig?bakit ako single?
☻ pero minsan masaya din para walang sakit sa ulo.pero minsan kasi masarap din.haha.basta.
☻ bakit ganun ang tao ang hirap ispelingin. hindi ko sila maintindihan. napaka moody nila parang ako..hehe
☻ ang hirap ng buhay ngaun.tae kasing Pilipinas 'to. 'Lang kwenta.\
☻ I'm sure mananalo si Obama sa election. naku sana lang talaga. Para magkaroon naman ng konting peace. tae kasi si bush mahilig sa gyera,palibhasa republican sila e..yan tuloy maraming naapektuhan. para maiba naman, iboto dapat ang isang democrats tulad ni obama. kung saka sakali sya ang unang african american president.hahay..hayaan ko na sila.malalaki na sila.
☻ hay naku hindi ako makapaniwalang bawat tao ngaun dito sa pilipinas (kasama na ang mga sanggol na kasisilang palang sa mga oras na ito) e may utang na ng 27,000 more or less. dahil yan sa utang ng bansa natin. Kung susumahin bawat humihinga ngaun e may paguutang na 27,000. tae talaga 'tong si gloria.
☻ isa ka pa pacquiao nakakainis ka!dapat di ka nalang nanalo e!
☻ auq na ng usapang politika..hehe
☻ auq talaga ng sociology kahit kelan. buti nalng lalaki ang prof kahit ppano may ganang mkinig pero siguro kung naging babae un..nako walang mangyayari sakin.
☻ masaya ako sa accounting!
☻ inis ako sa literature. mali mali talaga sya kahit kelan!heehehe..ang sama
☻ dami kong natututunan kay sir estoque..kaso sa sobrang dami nyang alam at gustong ishare sa klase e parang lumalayo na sya sa dapat na topic..
☻ pero ok lang kasi kahit papano may natututunan..
☻ nako prelim na naman!san kaya ako kukuha ng pambayad!???
☻ masaya ako kasi may mga kaibigan ako sa qc na masasani kong totoo.
☻ guia gigz!lapit na bday mu hahay...A MILLION THANKS TO YOU. hayaan mu dadamayan kita sa lahat. heeheeh
☻ hay nako.. nakakasawa na mabuhay.....
☻ selos ako!basta selos ako!sige jan na kau!
☻ sana makapasa naman ako dun sa megaworld..................
☻ ang sarap pag aralan ng stat!yahoooo.....
☻ guia gigz nu kayang magandang pan regalo sau??hahay..hirap naman
☻ wala akong pakialam sa nararamdaman mu!
☻ inis ako sau!bkit ganyan ka......
☻ pipilitin ko nalang di mainlab sau...heheeh
☻ kaboring magbantay ng shop.........hahay.......
☻ may kasalanan ako kay mare at pare.......wish ko lang maintindihan nila ako.
☻ pati sa knya may kasalanan din ko..hehe.pasensya bkit..
☻ aylabyu na..hehhe
☻ malpit na ko mag time..nako next tym nalang ulit
☻ boring kasi ako kaya eto..hehe
☻ salamat sa laging pakikinig.

HAIKU

to myself:

as existence goes
a willpower is in need
to conquer éclat..

to my school:

I search for freedom

the space for a wisdom

who can give welcome?

to my society:

world constantly need

a strong-minded leader

that can gather peace

My Conclusions

I'm just about to turn seventeen this year. Yes,still young. But I can say that I've already been through a lot. I've already learned and realized so much about life. Ive laughed along those happy moments of it and also cried through those heartrending circumstances. I've been through ups and downs. I've already knew lot of being praised and being judged and criticized. I was able to value the presence of such things and also understand the absence of some. I have experienced "having" as well as "losing"; and knew so much about the art of love.
Life is never easy, it's full of trials, sacrifices and heartaches I must say. No matter how hard you try, sometimes it's still not just enough. Even if you do sacrifice, it's yet not reasonable for you to get what you want. Although you act as if every thing's perfectly fine, in any case, it won't change anything. You learn to pretend that you can face anything even if you know you really can't. You make believe that you're still strong even though you're really weak. Some people simply come in to your life and walk away just like that leaving you lonely and helpless. You can't accept the fact that you're alone and the world seems to crash it all on you. It's unfair but we can't do anything about it. It's meant to happen and it's the way it should be. We can't change it. That's life. It's tough. It's exigent. It's testing. It's just seems that we can deal with all of its reality.
Love and friendships are th colors of life. They're the strongest bonds that we can ever go through. We treasure it a lot and mean so much to us. It's influential, it's weighty and its the reason why we're all inspired and are able to deal with lots of things in life.
Our friends are our best buds. We can do anything and almost everything with them. They're the ones that we spend plenty of time of. It's just that, when we're with them, there's no limit. There's not just enough. We all want to enjoy and we should admit, sometimes, the wrong can be right as long as we know that we've got them along. Yeah, it's really cool..Our love for them is really unconditional. I'm really amazed on how they've got this power that makes us not to resist them. We do our best to be there when they needed us. We never turned them down. Actually, we can let ourself down for them. We preferred to be in malls hanging out with them, rather than to be with our family at home. There are just lots and lots of difference. Isn't funny? How friendship can transform us to persons that we usually didn't think we could be, the persons that our parents didn't want us to be. I'm not saying that our friends are bad influences. They're actually good influences to us. They teach us how to be brave, how to make hard things easy without being pressured. But I should say that SOME ARE NOT. They're not being helpful. Some friendships just can't be considered as one. I get mystified when I see "best friends forever friends" turning to "worst enemies". It's odd, such a shame because we can't get anything from these fights. There are no winners here, all are losers. I just find these issues very worthless. Just think of this; How can you say or do cruel things to a person that you used to spend lots of time with, the person that you used to call your "best", the person that you had crazy moments with, someone that has made so much for you as well as you do. All because of the influence of new friends, you've turned to someone you're not used to be. FIRST CONCLUSION: PEOPLE CHANGE.
Being in love is a magical feeling. What more is being loved? It sure feels good. You always have a reason to smile, to blush and feel fine despite all the hardships and problems in life because you've got someone- Someone you cares for you, someone who constantly thinks of you, someone who's deeply in lone with you. But then suddenly, many things bother you. Lots of people oppose and you don't know what to do. You'll say that how could it be so wrong when it feels so right? Thinking that this person is the one, you persist and stick with this person you love. Against all odds! What an incredible thing to do for that person you love. Following no rules and fighting for your right to love. Love sure defies anything, isn't it? Then here come the heartaches. The one you fought for surprisingly changed. This person is not the one you knew. You come to think that after all, what others have told you was right. You've been so in love and you forgot to consider lots of things. You feel so much regret;you wished that if only you've just waited a bit more. You've got so many questions in mind but you'll be just about to say and finally realized that all of these should be over. You should now move on, and forget the one you loved. After sometime, you'll surely realize that this person is really not the one. You were strong, SECOND CONCLUSION: LOVE DOESN'T LAST.
We're all going through many things right now. Dealing with other dilemmas and facing lots of trials. My conclusions are just product of my observations and experiences. These statements could change. It could mean that people do change but it's for the better. It's meant maybe because God has other plans for us. We could say a better plan and even if it caused some friendships to end, we should emphasize and believe that in every end, there's a new beginning. Love doesn't last- that's what I think for now but that can alter and maybe after sometime, I'll then say that love is forever. Its all depends on the one we love and it's up to our fate. Giving love is a wonderful thing to do. Being loved is overwhelming. Whatever is happening to us now are just according to our own destinies. What's meant is meant. What's done is already done. It's just for us to find out what happens next. We should be more than ready for the things that we're about to face in the near future. But despite all the challenges and heartaches that we've got through, let's all accept it and just try to think that life is not always unfair and hard. We should all look up to my LAST CONCLUSION: LIFE GOES ON. :)

Blog-More Than Just a Diary

Your Online Testimony

I keep a blog. For those who don’t know what “blog” is, it is short of web log. A lot of site offer it; it’s where you can write just about anything about everything and unleash creative mind within. Blogs can come in all shapes and a size without any restrictions-it is the worldwide web. Blogs mainly serve as an outlet of thoughts; it’s where you freely write about almost every detail of your life. Not only does it exercise your writing skills, it also shows what’s inside you as you update it periodically.

The essential part of it is not just on writing but also on the reading. It provides you a better view on a person once you know what’s inside his blog. Yes, it’s a journal-an online journal. Knowing what’s going on in people’s lives is a very interesting part. But the best is that reading your past journals-weeks, months or even years ago.

Technology can truly be considered as a tool for advancement not as something that would cause destruction. After all, what we are is a reflection of what we write and where we indulge ourselves. Take every opportunity as an opportunity to advance and be a blessing to many.

Farewell To My Friends in TIPQC

“Someone can walk into your life and it is not until after they walk out that you realize that they were even there.”

We all experienced at a certain point in our lives the grief of losing someone special. The pain is not as petty as spilling a glass of milk and as physical as cutting your finger. The hurt is deep within you and nothing could ever pacify it, except time.

Letting go is a part of human nature. Everybody goes through the immense hole that people leave in your heart when they go away. We can never be immune with the pain. It is a fact that no one can keep someone they love for as long as they want because there will come a time when we have to break the bond. As much as you hate it, as much as it hurts, you have to let go.

Loving and letting go is probably the hardest thing you have to do. Meeting someone special then saying goodbye may stab your heart so badly you could never learn to recover from it. But these only mean that you are strong enough for the pain it could bring and brave enough to accept it.

Yes, the agony is inevitable. But by losing people dear to you and crying over them shows that they have been an important part of your life. The pain may last long, but the moments you share with each other are there to help you lessen the pain.

Every beginning has its ending and every ending there’s a new world waiting. Let us keep it in our mind the essence of the people who are just past by in our lives. Just be grateful for those people who came into your life, who left a mark in your existence, and who shaped you to become who you are today.

People who are closest to you are the ones you have a hard time letting go of. Friends and classmates who have been there since God only knows when, who have been with you through thick and thin (how many times do I hear that line?), and who have been caring and understanding to help you with the load. And who can easily forget the professors? I am just first year but I’ve already experienced the panic that surrounds the whole class just because of the burdens that they given us. Well, I guess that’s their way of giving us the affection that we need. By giving out tons of homework, quizzes (that looks like a final exam,haha!), by their incessant scolding (we just loooove those lectures, don’t we?), and their takes on being young again. These people are hard to find so we must be grateful to Him because He gave us a chance to meet them and have them in our lives. Yes, I can never know who will I get acquainted with after I leave TIP QC, so treasure every minute left though we’re just incoming second year. Do anything (just don’t let your grade slip), be crazy and have fun! Remember our saying “tiwala lang..”? We knew it from the start how much these two words contain in time.

Don’t let regret take hold of you. No buts, no ifs. Say everything you wanted to say before it’s too late. It could never be too late for those who try, but only for those who give up.

Goodbye and good luck on both of us.